Eric Marcus of Making Gay History had the rare and treasured opporunity to chat with Syliva Rivera in 1989. Now, Marcus has released the recording, which provides Rivera’s account of the Stonewall Riots and thoughts on gender identity, drag queens, and life in New York City.
Eric Marcus: Interview with Ray Rivera, Saturday, December 9, 1989, at 4:00 PM. Location is the home of Ray Rivera in Tarrytown, New York. Interviewer is Eric Marcus. Tape 1, Side 1.
Sylvia Rivera: The Stonewall wasn’t a bar for drag queens. Everybody keeps saying it was. So this is where I get into arguments with people. They say, “Oh, no, it’s always a drag queen bar and it was a black bar. No, Washington Square Bar was the drag queen bar. Okay, you could get into the Stonewall if they knew you and there were only a certain amount of drag queens that were allowed into the Stonewall at that time.
We had just come back in from, um, from Washington, my first lover and I. We were passing forged checks and what not. But we were making good money. And so, well, let’s go to the Stonewall. Let’s do our thing. Let’s go there, you know. Actually it was the first time that I had even been to friggin’ Stonewall.
I wasn’t in full drag. I was dressed, you know, very pleasantly. I was wearing a woman’s suit. Bell bottoms were out then. I had made this fabulous suit at home and I was wearing that and I had the hair out. Lots of makeup, lots of hair.
Were you drinking at the bar or just standing around?
Nah, I was drinking. The police came in. They came in to get their payoff as usual. They would come in, padlock the friggin’ door. As soon as they left the mafia was there cuttin’ in the door, they had a new register, they had more money, and they had more booze. This is what we learned to live with at that time. We had to live with it. We had to live with it until that day.
I don’t know if it was the customers or it was the police. It just [snaps fingers], everything clicked.
Everybody just like, Why the fuck are we doin’ all this for? The people at them bars, especially at the Stonewall, were involved in other movements and everybody just like, Alright, we gotta’ do our thing. We’re gonna’ go for it. And when they ushered us out, it was nice, you know, when they just very nicely put you out the door. And then you’re standing across the street in Sheridan Square park and, but why? Buy why? All of a sudden you just feel this…everybody’s looking at each other. But why do we have to keep on constantly putting up with this? And the nickels, the dimes, the pennies, and the quarters started flying.
Why, why that? Why did people do that?
The payoff. That was the payoff.
Oh…Oh, oh, oh.
That was the payoff.
It was to symbolize the payoff.
Yep. You already got…
And here’s some more?
And here’s some more. To be there, you know…is was just like, oh, it was so beautiful…
Was it exciting?
Oh, it was so exciting. It was like, Wow, we’re doing it. We’re doing it. We’re fucking their nerves. The cops were, you know, they just panicked. Inspector Pine really panicked. He really did. Plus, he had no backup. He knew…he did not expect any of the retaliation that the gay community gave him at that point.
Do you think all this was in part because people were so angry for so long?
People were very angry for so long. I mean, how long can you live in a closet?
I was already out of my closet.
When you’re obvious back then there was nothing to hold you back.
It was always the effeminate male or the butch woman, that’s what society always looked at. We are the ones that went out there and we didn’t take no shit from them. We didn’t have nothing to lose. Actually, you know, at that point in time, you know, I understand the ones that held their heads down low, because they probably had very nice jobs and they had a family to go to.
I was born to be an effeminate child. My grandmother used to come home and find me all dressed up. Just like…I’d get my ass whipped, of course, you know. “Well we don’t do this. You’re one of the boys. I want you to be a mechanic.” I said, “No, but I want to be a hairdresser. I want to do this. And I want to wear these clothes.”
I was born July 2, 1951, at 2:30 in the morning in a taxi cab in the old Lincoln Hospital parking lot. The old queen couldn’t wait. She says, “I’m ready to hit the streets.” My grandmother used to always joke about that. I said, “Yeah, you see why I’m always standing out on the street corner.” And then I was…came out feet first.
So you landed on…
So I was ready.
I always mention my grandmother because my mother died when I was three years old. And she raised me. So it’s my grandmother that raised me until I left home.
So you left home at 10.
Yeah. I left home at about 10, 10-and-a-half. I was almost 11.
The only reason that I left home at such an early age was because my grandmother came home crying one day with the tears in her eyes and says, “They’re calling you pato.” Which means faggot in the Spanish language. And it hurt her so bad because they were doing this to me. And she knew where I was coming from. She knew.
I had that much respect for my grandmother. I didn’t want her to suffer. It wasn’t my suffering. I was worrying about her suffering.
How did you survive on the streets?
Became a street walker. You stand out in the street and you make money.
At that age.
At that age it was easy to make money.
I don’t know how many times my grandmother had to come and bail me out of jail. She was there. She always came, bailed me out. She says, “Oh, that’s my grandson. I have to take him out.”
What were you in jail for?
Prostitution. You know, bullshit loitering. Nothing major, you know.
If you walked down 42nd Street and even looked like a faggot, you were going to jail.
So you went to jail a few times.
Oh, I went to jail a lot of times.
The community is always embarrassed by drag queens.
Why do you think?
Why do I think? No, it’s not Why I think. I know.
Okay, why do you know?
Because, straight society always looks, Oh, well a faggot always dresses in drag or he’s too effeminate. You’ve got to be who you are. Passing is like saying a light skin black woman or black male passing for white. And I refuse to pass.
You couldn’t have passed.
No, I couldn’t pass.
Not in this lifetime.
No, not in this lifetime. I just like being myself. It’s fun being…It’s fun being Sylvia. It’s fun playing the game.